Love is always patient and kind
it is never jealous
Love is never boastful nor conceded
it is never rude or selfish
It does not take offense
it is not resentful
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins
but delights in the truth
It is always ready to excuse
to trust
to hold
and to endure whatever comes
Wednesday, 11 July 2012
Saturday, 7 July 2012
Le Tumblr
For all of you nagging me and questioning my AUTHORITY!!
Im just kidding you nice sexy people.
=) Haha i just deleted my tumblr, no, I did not block you. I wouldn't know how to anyways and many people don't really have that much of an influence on me anyways so don't think you so special being blocked mkay? =) i deleted it.
I deleted it cause of a bad situation that went down, it was really bad. I will never frikken forget it, i feel like I'm a shitty person and things just got really bad. But I won't go into that right now cause Im voiceless, I'm still in bed and I feel like shit on a terrible day.
Anyways so now im gonna go snuggle downstairs with Andy and watch some rugby cause I'm frikken sick and I just wanna sleep and do nothing =)
So i just wanted to let you guys know i deleted it =P Kay thanks =)
Im just kidding you nice sexy people.
=) Haha i just deleted my tumblr, no, I did not block you. I wouldn't know how to anyways and many people don't really have that much of an influence on me anyways so don't think you so special being blocked mkay? =) i deleted it.
I deleted it cause of a bad situation that went down, it was really bad. I will never frikken forget it, i feel like I'm a shitty person and things just got really bad. But I won't go into that right now cause Im voiceless, I'm still in bed and I feel like shit on a terrible day.
Anyways so now im gonna go snuggle downstairs with Andy and watch some rugby cause I'm frikken sick and I just wanna sleep and do nothing =)
So i just wanted to let you guys know i deleted it =P Kay thanks =)
Wednesday, 4 July 2012
Losing People You Love
Im Sure there are many people out there that have lost many friends or family. I don't mean like Death losing but say you had a really good friend that you are now no longer friends with. That person you thought you could trust but now that you look back, you could never ever trust them because they let you down. It may even be the other way around. You may of disappointed a friend and lost them.
Doesn't really matter because whether you meant to do it or not, that person was still probably a very important person in your life. It probably hurt like hell losing that person.
Promises.. Shoo the bad experiences I've had with this. Im sure many of you reading this post have had many promises made and broken. Many promises you still keeping and holding. Promises are the things that show that you mean a lot to that person. You are willing to tell that person what's going on and knowing that they won't break the promise or back stab you. 80% of the time, people have told your secret. I have hardly any secrets anymore because people seem to like to talk about other people lives but shame for you really. I have a very interesting life and I don't need to get into yours to make it more exciting.
I won't lie, I've broken people's promises, I've lost some very good people in my life and I'm not proud of any of it but I've gotten a lot better at it. Some people may not think so, people still to this day walk out of my life and They may have better people in their life so they don't need me and I'm fine with that. As long as they happy with the new people and things are amazing then I really don't mind. I'm used to it. I'm not offended. I'm actually happy for you =)
We all want to be those popular people that get invited everywhere and have some many friends and I really don't get why. Those people? They are horrible people 90% of the time. They are bullies 90% of the time. They don't care about anyone else but themselves. They party because thats all they have. You just a little different? Sorry you are just some loser that no one cares about. I can tell you now that half the people they such good friends with?? They aren't good friends. they hardly even talk. I have more good friends than they do. All Those guys they go through?? I could date a guy for a week and still have a much longer and more dedicated relationship. You aren't popular?? You aren't missing out. All the popular people talk about each other behind each others backs. They don't care about you. They just like your alcohol or your dress code.
Those loud people who embarrass you all the time?? Those people who pretend to be your friend but actually they aren't even close?? Those people who want to be invited to everything but won't invite you and wont make an effort?? you know those people who use you?? those people you gotta be there for but fuck you when you need help??
Those people arent worth your time. They not worth much at all in your life. Im sure there are plenty people who want to be friends with you. people who will ALWAYS be there for you. People who will fight for you. Who will make an effort with you and support you. You dont need them anymore. Its hard to not be the popular person but we all are better off.
Cause we cooler than them bitches =D
haha ANYWAYS
I'm off to watch 10000090932832724389 videos my sister gave me =) So damn excited.
See what you can without a party ;)
Doesn't really matter because whether you meant to do it or not, that person was still probably a very important person in your life. It probably hurt like hell losing that person.
Promises.. Shoo the bad experiences I've had with this. Im sure many of you reading this post have had many promises made and broken. Many promises you still keeping and holding. Promises are the things that show that you mean a lot to that person. You are willing to tell that person what's going on and knowing that they won't break the promise or back stab you. 80% of the time, people have told your secret. I have hardly any secrets anymore because people seem to like to talk about other people lives but shame for you really. I have a very interesting life and I don't need to get into yours to make it more exciting.
I won't lie, I've broken people's promises, I've lost some very good people in my life and I'm not proud of any of it but I've gotten a lot better at it. Some people may not think so, people still to this day walk out of my life and They may have better people in their life so they don't need me and I'm fine with that. As long as they happy with the new people and things are amazing then I really don't mind. I'm used to it. I'm not offended. I'm actually happy for you =)
We all want to be those popular people that get invited everywhere and have some many friends and I really don't get why. Those people? They are horrible people 90% of the time. They are bullies 90% of the time. They don't care about anyone else but themselves. They party because thats all they have. You just a little different? Sorry you are just some loser that no one cares about. I can tell you now that half the people they such good friends with?? They aren't good friends. they hardly even talk. I have more good friends than they do. All Those guys they go through?? I could date a guy for a week and still have a much longer and more dedicated relationship. You aren't popular?? You aren't missing out. All the popular people talk about each other behind each others backs. They don't care about you. They just like your alcohol or your dress code.
Those loud people who embarrass you all the time?? Those people who pretend to be your friend but actually they aren't even close?? Those people who want to be invited to everything but won't invite you and wont make an effort?? you know those people who use you?? those people you gotta be there for but fuck you when you need help??
Those people arent worth your time. They not worth much at all in your life. Im sure there are plenty people who want to be friends with you. people who will ALWAYS be there for you. People who will fight for you. Who will make an effort with you and support you. You dont need them anymore. Its hard to not be the popular person but we all are better off.
Cause we cooler than them bitches =D
haha ANYWAYS
I'm off to watch 10000090932832724389 videos my sister gave me =) So damn excited.
See what you can without a party ;)
Monday, 2 July 2012
Sick And Tiredddd :/
So After working a double shift yesterday, I'm now half voiceless and My Throat is on fire. I've never worked so hard in my life. I ran around for hours. I ate once and that was a plate of curly fries. I hate being sick =) Really its a very painful experience haha but I made lots of money =D Like a bowse.
Anyways so yesterday was the 4th month of my dad's death. And I'm so glad i worked so I didn't need to think about it and now that I'm off work and not doing much its kinda getting to me. Yesterday, without realizing what day it was. I was extremely grumpy and literally blew up at everyone. But thats not the point. Today we found out that my dad has had a trophy named after him and there have been many golf days done after him and then there will be a bush walk for him. Many of his friends have made many little things for him. There are countless things. Many people dont have this and I must say I'm pretty damn proud of what my dad has done over the years and how many people he had touched and helped and stayed in contact with. He made a huge effort with his friends and girlfriends and sometimes his daughters but he did live his life to the full.
In a few couple of days, its going to be his birthday. Sorry guys, I will be at school and you will see my crappy side come out. I'm not looking forward to it at all and seeing as though last year we did something big, this years is going to be a very small quiet one for a change.
OMG feels like my throat is about to give way and collapse but anyways
I'm enjoying these holidays, Ive made dough, I've made friends and I've also had quite a relaxing time.
Haven't seen much of my friends.. I havent even spoken to them really.. Dont know why just yeah =)
I was thinking lately that life is a pretty weird thing, I met a regular last night and he works with dead people. Not like actual physical dead people but he can show you if the person you love is still around. He got a person who lost his mom. He made him think of all the good things in life but he couldnt think about his mom. He then blew into a straw and placed it on a flat surface. When he put his hand by the straw, the straw never moved. But when he had to think of all the good things about his mom and blow in the straw.. The straw spun around and around when he put his hand nearly it. This took no preparation at all, the guy had heard about his work, came up and asked him. He sat down and started while he was sitting at our bar so there was no trick to it.
You get some incredibly talented people.
I think Thats pretty sick =)
Anyways so yesterday was the 4th month of my dad's death. And I'm so glad i worked so I didn't need to think about it and now that I'm off work and not doing much its kinda getting to me. Yesterday, without realizing what day it was. I was extremely grumpy and literally blew up at everyone. But thats not the point. Today we found out that my dad has had a trophy named after him and there have been many golf days done after him and then there will be a bush walk for him. Many of his friends have made many little things for him. There are countless things. Many people dont have this and I must say I'm pretty damn proud of what my dad has done over the years and how many people he had touched and helped and stayed in contact with. He made a huge effort with his friends and girlfriends and sometimes his daughters but he did live his life to the full.
In a few couple of days, its going to be his birthday. Sorry guys, I will be at school and you will see my crappy side come out. I'm not looking forward to it at all and seeing as though last year we did something big, this years is going to be a very small quiet one for a change.
OMG feels like my throat is about to give way and collapse but anyways
I'm enjoying these holidays, Ive made dough, I've made friends and I've also had quite a relaxing time.
Haven't seen much of my friends.. I havent even spoken to them really.. Dont know why just yeah =)
I was thinking lately that life is a pretty weird thing, I met a regular last night and he works with dead people. Not like actual physical dead people but he can show you if the person you love is still around. He got a person who lost his mom. He made him think of all the good things in life but he couldnt think about his mom. He then blew into a straw and placed it on a flat surface. When he put his hand by the straw, the straw never moved. But when he had to think of all the good things about his mom and blow in the straw.. The straw spun around and around when he put his hand nearly it. This took no preparation at all, the guy had heard about his work, came up and asked him. He sat down and started while he was sitting at our bar so there was no trick to it.
You get some incredibly talented people.
I think Thats pretty sick =)
Tuesday, 12 June 2012
Perfect-Simple Plan
This song explains absolutely everything I'm feeling right now. This week has been a hard one especially with so much time and little to do. I should really get onto that but Fathers day is coming up and so is his birthday so I'm not looking forward to that at all. I don't know how I'm going to handle it and its very different for me. Things change so drastically for me and I really don't like it... Don't like change but hey I know its gotta happen. I just had the worst week of exams. Literally slept for 3 days straight and my mind hasn't been right for awhile. Got a lot going through it. Yeah.. Hecticness. So I just downloaded new songs. Let Me quickly update
Songs:
When I'm gone- Simple Plan
Perfect- Simple Plan
Distance- Christina Perri
Be Still-The Fray
The Fighter-Gym Class Heroes
Holding on-Simple Plan
The Lonely-Christina Perri
As Long as we Got love- Javier Colon
No Love-Simple Plan
Medicine- Daughter
Poison and Wine-The Civil Wars
Arms-Christina Perri
Stitch by Stitch- Javier Colon
A Drop in the Ocean- Ron Pope
We are The Tide- Blind Pilot
Songs:
When I'm gone- Simple Plan
Perfect- Simple Plan
Distance- Christina Perri
Be Still-The Fray
The Fighter-Gym Class Heroes
Holding on-Simple Plan
The Lonely-Christina Perri
As Long as we Got love- Javier Colon
No Love-Simple Plan
Medicine- Daughter
Poison and Wine-The Civil Wars
Arms-Christina Perri
Stitch by Stitch- Javier Colon
A Drop in the Ocean- Ron Pope
We are The Tide- Blind Pilot
Tuesday, 22 May 2012
Appearance VS Reality
Okay so Today my post will be on what people put out and what they actually fucking mean.
Those are two very different things.
For me, I apparently wear a mask to hide my true feelings about my dad. And Hey, i Couldn't disagree and argue with that statement. As it came from a psychologist and it wouldn't be exactly etiquette to fight with your psycho but also because if i had to show my true self 24/7, you would see a lot more than just this. You would see 10x's more anger, 10x's more tears and 10x's different than the person you know me to be.
And why not??
Going through things like this can change a person. It can go either way.
You can be:
Daddy's Little Angel
Or
Daddy's Like Devil.
BOOM i just quoted Desperate Housewives
.
Anyways, Getting back to my main topic.
I have realized going through hard times, there are people that will always be there for you, no matter what. Then you will have people that will be there in portions. But mostly you get those people who think they are there but truly they just wanna be in the loop.
Finding out the truth is hard but the truth is a hundred times better to hear. Lies are never something a person wants to go through.
I won't lie. I used to be one of those who sat there and judged people. Hey, who doesnt sit on the side of the table where u can see everyone and hear them. Lets be serious. We all do it but since I got a new group of friends, i no longer have the need to sit there and judge people. No need to be harsh. No need to prove myself to anyone else. Your friends define you. Your friends are the people who will stop you from doing the bad things and help you through everything.
As Cliche as that is, its 100% true. Life happens. Life is inevitable. You just got to go along for the ride.
Next Topic: Boys.
Why don't boys just say it like it is. Why cant them boys be for realz??
Kiddin.
But seriously, why do boys make things so much more complicated than it has to be?
Making a girl sit around waiting for you to make your mind up because you indecisive isnt working out.
I might be generalizing here.
But don't tell me u don't want anything to happen.
Then try get something.
The fuck.
What the Actual Fuck.
As an added extra.
I just need to say.
I hate Great Gatsby.
I don't even know the difference between Nick, Tom, Billy, Joe, Myrtle, Gatsby, Daisy and whoever else.
All i know is that one of those people are suspected to be gay.
Exam Question:
1. Who is Nick?
My Answer:
The gay guy!!
2. Who is Tom?
My Answer:
Wait... isn't he the gay guy??
3. Who is Gatsby?
My Answer:
He is friends with that gay guy... Right?
Thanks Ms Morris for increasing my Education further =)
Just Kidddddding
Not really..
Those are two very different things.
For me, I apparently wear a mask to hide my true feelings about my dad. And Hey, i Couldn't disagree and argue with that statement. As it came from a psychologist and it wouldn't be exactly etiquette to fight with your psycho but also because if i had to show my true self 24/7, you would see a lot more than just this. You would see 10x's more anger, 10x's more tears and 10x's different than the person you know me to be.
And why not??
Going through things like this can change a person. It can go either way.
You can be:
Daddy's Little Angel
Or
Daddy's Like Devil.
BOOM i just quoted Desperate Housewives
.
Anyways, Getting back to my main topic.
I have realized going through hard times, there are people that will always be there for you, no matter what. Then you will have people that will be there in portions. But mostly you get those people who think they are there but truly they just wanna be in the loop.
Finding out the truth is hard but the truth is a hundred times better to hear. Lies are never something a person wants to go through.
I won't lie. I used to be one of those who sat there and judged people. Hey, who doesnt sit on the side of the table where u can see everyone and hear them. Lets be serious. We all do it but since I got a new group of friends, i no longer have the need to sit there and judge people. No need to be harsh. No need to prove myself to anyone else. Your friends define you. Your friends are the people who will stop you from doing the bad things and help you through everything.
As Cliche as that is, its 100% true. Life happens. Life is inevitable. You just got to go along for the ride.
Next Topic: Boys.
Why don't boys just say it like it is. Why cant them boys be for realz??
Kiddin.
But seriously, why do boys make things so much more complicated than it has to be?
Making a girl sit around waiting for you to make your mind up because you indecisive isnt working out.
I might be generalizing here.
But don't tell me u don't want anything to happen.
Then try get something.
The fuck.
What the Actual Fuck.
As an added extra.
I just need to say.
I hate Great Gatsby.
I don't even know the difference between Nick, Tom, Billy, Joe, Myrtle, Gatsby, Daisy and whoever else.
All i know is that one of those people are suspected to be gay.
Exam Question:
1. Who is Nick?
My Answer:
The gay guy!!
2. Who is Tom?
My Answer:
Wait... isn't he the gay guy??
3. Who is Gatsby?
My Answer:
He is friends with that gay guy... Right?
Thanks Ms Morris for increasing my Education further =)
Just Kidddddding
Not really..
Friday, 18 May 2012
My Sister and I had a cool conversation about the higher power.
We aren't the most religious family and we never really have been.
But she said something really important and something that will stick with me for a very long time.
We spoke about how we may of had a life before the life we had now
And somehow we landed up on the topic of where my dad has gone to and how we would love to know what its like when you finally get there.
Sam has never been the one to pray because out of all 3 sisters, she hasn't really been the one to take to a "Higher Power". Anyways after my dad passed away, Sam has started praying.
I asked her why she has only started praying now and she said:
"Because now there is a God.. Dad is God and now I have someone up there that I know is real. Someone who will look after me no matter what."
I have never heard anything quite like it before... It's so true and so meaningful.
Its something that will now stay with me for the rest of my life. No doubt about it.
Love You Dad, No Matter Where You Are <3
We aren't the most religious family and we never really have been.
But she said something really important and something that will stick with me for a very long time.
We spoke about how we may of had a life before the life we had now
And somehow we landed up on the topic of where my dad has gone to and how we would love to know what its like when you finally get there.
Sam has never been the one to pray because out of all 3 sisters, she hasn't really been the one to take to a "Higher Power". Anyways after my dad passed away, Sam has started praying.
I asked her why she has only started praying now and she said:
"Because now there is a God.. Dad is God and now I have someone up there that I know is real. Someone who will look after me no matter what."
I have never heard anything quite like it before... It's so true and so meaningful.
Its something that will now stay with me for the rest of my life. No doubt about it.
Love You Dad, No Matter Where You Are <3
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