Appearance VS Reality

Okay so Today my post will be on what people put out and what they actually fucking mean.
Those are two very different things.
For me, I apparently wear a mask to hide my true feelings about my dad. And Hey, i Couldn't disagree and argue with that statement. As it came from a psychologist and it wouldn't be exactly etiquette to fight with your psycho but also because if i had to show my true self 24/7, you would see a lot more than just this. You would see 10x's more anger, 10x's more tears and 10x's different than the person you know me to be.
And why not??
Going through things like this can change a person. It can go either way.
You can be:
Daddy's Little Angel
Or
Daddy's Like Devil.

BOOM i just quoted Desperate Housewives
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Anyways, Getting back to my main topic.
I have realized going through hard times, there are people that will always be there for you, no matter what. Then you will have people that will be there in portions. But mostly you get those people who think they are there but truly they just wanna be in the loop.
Finding out the truth is hard but the truth is a hundred times better to hear. Lies are never something a person wants to go through.
I won't lie. I used to be one of those who sat there and judged people. Hey, who doesnt sit on the side of the table where u can see everyone and hear them. Lets be serious. We all do it but since I got a new group of friends, i no longer have the need to sit there and judge people. No need to be harsh. No need to prove myself to anyone else. Your friends define you. Your friends are the people who will stop you from doing the bad things and help you through everything.
As Cliche as that is, its 100% true. Life happens. Life is inevitable. You just got to go along for the ride.

Next Topic: Boys.
Why don't boys just say it like it is. Why cant them boys be for realz??
Kiddin.
But seriously, why do boys make things so much more complicated than it has to be?
Making a girl sit around waiting for you to make your mind up because you indecisive isnt working out.
I might be generalizing here.
But don't tell me u don't want anything to happen.
Then try get something.
The fuck.
What the Actual Fuck.

As an added extra.
I just need to say.
I hate Great Gatsby.
I don't even know the difference between Nick, Tom, Billy, Joe, Myrtle, Gatsby, Daisy and whoever else.
All i know is that one of those people are suspected to be gay.
Exam Question:
1. Who is Nick?
My Answer:
The gay guy!!
2. Who is Tom?
My Answer:
Wait... isn't he the gay guy??
3. Who is Gatsby?
My Answer:
He is friends with that gay guy... Right?

Thanks Ms Morris for increasing my Education further =)

Just Kidddddding


Not really..

My Sister and I had a cool conversation about the higher power.
We aren't the most religious family and we never really have been.
But she said something really important and something that will stick with me for a very long time.
We spoke about how we may of had a life before the life we had now
And somehow we landed up on the topic of where my dad has gone to and how we would love to know what its like when you finally get there.
Sam has never been the one to pray because out of all 3 sisters, she hasn't really been the one to take to a "Higher Power". Anyways after my dad passed away, Sam has started praying.
I asked her why she has only started praying now and she said:
"Because now there is a God.. Dad is God and now I have someone up there that I know is real. Someone who will look after me no matter what."
I have never heard anything quite like it before... It's so true and so meaningful.
Its something that will now stay with me for the rest of my life. No doubt about it.

Love You Dad, No Matter Where You Are <3

Life Experiences

In Life, We are faced with many difficult experiences. Some you will benefit from and some you will never see the hidden process behind it. But like anything, experiences can mend a person and it can change a life completely.
I Can honestly say that the experience I have gotten in the last 3 months has been overwhelming in a good and a bad way.
Losing someone close to your heart is a hard thing to have to deal with and it doesn't get any easier as days pass or months or weeks.
That hole that was left is never filled because that person was irreplaceable and you may deal with it and you may forget for awhile but there will always be things everywhere that will keep the memories alive.
Spend as much time with the people you want to, say what you need to say and live every moment because you never know when it can be taken away from you. Nothing can ever prepare you for the obstacles ahead but you can always have to the people around you to help you through it and to guide you to the right place.
In the last 3 months, I have learnt so many new things and I have come away looking at things a lot more clearly.
To My Dad,
I Love You More Than Life Itself
And May You RIP
xxx